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Fifth Fall - [Action for house 40/Voice]

[This can't be real. None of this can be real. It's just some sort of bad dream, right? It has to be.

Staring into his room, Naoi just stands there in the doorway, looking around at everything that's visible. All of his things are gone. His bed sheets are folded in a way Otonashi wouldn't do, no clothes hanging about to be washed. There's nothing.

He charges into the room, dropping the farewell present that he had been holding so tightly in his hands to search about the room for something--anything to prove that he really isn't gone. He practically flips the mattress on it's side, nothing. Flings open the closet door, nothing. Searches through the desk drawers, nothing.

It's as if... he never even existed in this world.

Before he can stop himself, he starts to yell, to the point where neighbors might hear]

I am God!! God is the only one who decides when someone can leave!! I did not ... I didn't... [The words get caught in his throat as the tears that had built up in his eyes this whole time start to flow over. He doesn't make any attempt to stop them either. He simply falls on his knees and begins to sob.

Just this once, God will cry.

How could he have let this happen? Both himself and Otonashi? This was their second chance... weren't they supposed to make the most of it together? ]

Otonashi you promised... you promised you wouldn't leave me.... [so why? Now he's all alone again...]

[A little while later, when Naoi has his anger and tears under.. decent control, he opens his journal]

Yuzuru Otonashi is gone. [Then he closes the journal. He has nothing left to say. There is nothing else to say.

His best friend is gone and that's that.]

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[ Okay, what is going on with this stupid yelling? Yuri comes stomping into the room, slamming the door open even further. ]

What the hell are you--

[ Except then she stops when she actually sees the room. Empty. Naoi doesn't look well. It doesn't take her more than a few seconds to figure out what the hell's going on. She stayed quiet now though. There wasn't anything she could say and comfort wasn't exactly her strong suit. It was just like he'd disappeared from their world. ]

[Why is everyone in Otonashi's room today? Better go take a look and see what's going on. Wow did Otonashi redecorate or something?

...

Naoi is crying. Yuri isn't saying anything. What's with this heavy atmosphere. Seeing as it has yet to dawn on her, Yotsuba turns and shouts out into the rest of the house.]

Otonashy!! Where are you?! We're all in your room so come and play! [...Is he playing hide and seek?]

[With both girls now in the room, Naoi tries to wipe the tears away and throws a glare at Yotsuba. How annoying.]

Would you shut up you brat?! Otonashi is gone! Sent home! Dead!

[That last word makes him cringe a little but he's not taking it back now. It's the truth. Otonashi is back to being dead with a capital D]

Naoi!

[ Yuri goes and puts a hand on Yotsuba's shoulder, not looking at Naoi. ]

We're already dead. Even if we're alive here, that's what we have to go back to. He's the one whose idea it was that we needed to move on. If he found a way back and did this on purpose, then that was because it's what he needed to do. If he didn't do it on purpose, then it's not his fault. Either way, it's done.

[ Yuri's voice doesn't appear to be cold, but she's still remaining steady. That tone she gets when she knows that it's not something that can be helped, even if she knows it means that they've lost something. Like when she'd accepted Otonashi's idea to help everyone get over their problems. Like she's taken a step back from her feelings about it. ]

Yotsuba, Otonashi went home.

...

[For once it seems she actually doesn't know what to say. The explanation is a little confusing to her, hearing Otonashi had gone back home where he was dead, but then again she never knew anything about any of their lives back home. It's not like she asked.

But either way, gone or dead or whatever, Otonashi isn't here anymore. And that's... Really upsetting. He was the one who took her in and gave her a home when she first arrived.]

He'll come back, right?

Who knows.

[At least Naoi didn't say no on that one. He wants to believe that Otonashi really will come back one day. Not for Yotsuba or anyone else's sake, but his own. Without him here, nothing feels right anymore.

This second chance? Pointless. Trying to make pottery again? Pointless. No one will acknowledge him here. He doesn't want anyone too, just Otonashi.]

People disappear and reappear here all the time. It's possible.

[ That was something new. The thought of someone coming back after disappearing. That small hope was almost worse than knowing it's not possible, because it meant that she could want it.

That wouldn't help Naoi though would it? ]

We have to figure out what we're going to do.

[ Since she was pretty sure that right now, Naoi wouldn't just go along with whatever she said. ]

[...She didn't hear a 'yes, he'll be back' or anything positive there. So... He's not coming back then? Maybe? Dug left and he never came back. Natsu left and he never came back. Otonashi is going to be the same isn't he?!

It's a little strange for Yotsuba to be thinking in such a pessimistic way. Normally her dad would be here to check on her until she was happy again, or at least spur her on. All she got here was a 'shut up brat' and a 'who knows'.

Slumping against Yuri's side and keeping quiet. Maybe she's sulking, or thinking to herself about what's going on. It's hard to tell right now.]

Figure out what, exactly?

[The silence from Yotsuba is actually nice for a change. Not that it's helping Naoi calm down significantly, but it helped at least somewhat. So now he stands up, walks over to the hat he dropped on the floor and puts it on.]

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[ Yuzuru Otonashi is-- ... wait, he's gone? Shouldn't someone look for him if he's lost? The thought that he could be entirely gone from this place doesn't even cross Usagi's mind in the process. ]

Isn't anyone looking for Yuzuru-kun, then?!

There is no point in searching for him. His things have been removed. He is no longer here in this world.

[Come on now, you made God spell it out for you]

... From this world.. Yuzuru-kun left Luceti? He was sent back home?

[ yes, even Usagi can understand that much from it, but.. that makes her more quiet, thoughtful. Almost uncharacteristically so, but it's not like Naoi knows that. ]

I.. see..

Took you long enough to figure that out.

[Jeez]

H-- hey! There's no need to be so mean about it, you know? [ a slight huff, but it's more upset than actually downright angry. ]

It's just a big thing, Yuzuru-kun being gone and-- .. I didn't even say goodbye to him!

You think any of us got to say goodbye?

[Stop hitting that sore spot Usagi]

[ sob, she can be sort of hurtful without realising sometimes.. ]

... W-.. well, no, but.. all of Yuzuru-kun's friends should have gotten to say goodbye, right..?

We should have yes. But we didn't. No one did.

[Maybe it was better that way? Naoi said goodbye to Otonashi once already... doing it for the second time after he promised to stay with him--it wouldn't have gone well]

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